It's a new year, which means a new me right? Wrong.
I never make resolutions. I don't feel the need to change myself. And for the first time in years in extremely happy with my life. I have a wonderful husband, a beautiful apartment in a city I love, and the most fun job I could ask for.
So why do I feel the need to look into my past? Is it just the melancholy of January? Do I subconsciously do this every year in January to track myself and check my life?
I'm not sure.
A year ago, I was starting to plan my wedding.
2 years ago I was depressed and dating a man child.
3 years ago I was in love with what I thought was a wonderful man.
4 years ago I was starting to live with a monster.
5 years ago I was with another wonderful man, but it didn't work out.
6 years ago I was with no one and happy with my best friends.
There's been so much change in a short period of time. My daddy always said " The only constant in life is change" but how much change is good? I miss being excited about everything. I miss feeling young and infinite. The daily grind is getting to me again. I love my husband and I love my life, but I wish there was a bit more excitement.
The winter blues are getting to me again.
Love always,
me
